Monday, March 28, 2011

A Little Longer

Everytime I cried out and told God and my angels that I
should stop any connection with you, there's something strange happening.
seems like the world disagrees with me.i saw a man wearing white shirt
last night when i was about to close my eyes
and before my consciousness subsides. the last time, i saw him,
he was wearing gray shirt but with blurry face. Now,I can almost
see the shape of his face - he has an oval shaped face.the eyes wasn't
that clear yet.but atleast i now see his eyes unlike the man in gray that his
facial features are all blurry.


haiz...Lord.T_t
i dont know till when i can hold on with the same person.
should i let him go?should i share my world with others aside from him?
why everytime i think that i think i should go, i receive strange
transmissions??
why still i couldn't move on?
why if i insist that i dont want any connection with him, even without any
means of communication he is still connected with me in other means??
in a way only souls can understand??
why i feel sometimes losing a part of myself if i resist to forget him?
why do i feel pain when i think of that person?
why would he always cross my mind? even ive only met him once?
why would he always popped up on my thought even though i wasn't thinking of him?
why do i feel certain that he is the man for me?even though my mind rejects that thought?
why do i do things for him?
why do i have to resist these emotions?
is it because im afraid he would hurt me again?
is it because he already love someone?
or maybe he never had loved me?

haiz,,when would i learn how to balance my mind and my heart?
when would i learn how to follow my conscience?
when would i be deserving of a love so true?
when would i be happily in love again?

I did everything Lord, you know that.
I've changed me.
I'd become positive, happy, loving, caring for my family and friends.
I give them what I only have..LOVE,TIME.
I did everything for them Lord its not because I want something so bad.
I did it, give it openly and warmly because i love doing it.
..because this is ME.
I love them seeing happy when I share my little world that had been enlightened by You.
a world so magical and full of your richness and love that only me can understand.
That's why I wanted it to share with them so that they can also experience how am I being loved by YOu.
That I am genuinely happy and sincere..
That I dont need any rewards for those deeds..
That I can manage to be happy and strong as long as I have you Lord.

I did everything for you Lord.
But even how many times I tell you Im happy,
I still couldn't fill the gap in my heart.
I had given it to You for safekeeping a few years ago and Im really grateful
that you haven't handed it yet to anybody that doesn't deserves it..
Yes, i've found my true self and Im happy about it that i'd become whole.
Yet i couldn't explain these feelings that Im really a part of someone else's life.
But its okay Lord,maybe I have to wait a little longer
..for the right person
..at the right place
..in the right time and reasons
With God's timing, all is well and
everthing will fall into place.♥

Monday, March 21, 2011

Not Pork

Salig.Salig. Amo na lang gid to gnhatag cmu nga part,wala pa kaeffort2.
haiz...Im so tired. Tired of giving chances to people
who doesn't even bother to change.That's the last and here's the wall.
yuhooooo! ugtas..ugtas..hahaha Pork and I would never be goodies. not ebir!
maka-tao man o maka-hayop.It's toxic to the system.hahaha

Monday, March 14, 2011

A Blessing

♥You prayed and waited too hard, trying all the means to take of
things you don't own. But everytime you do, failure sinks in...
only makin' things more complicated.



How frustrating.

And as you search for truths,
you ended up being engulfed by this startling revelation:

"It could never be apart from you
for it is ALWAYS and FOREVER be
imprinted in your soul..
It is now a part of who you are...."


All you can do is to live with it and be grateful.
Acceptance is the key to live a happy life.♥


As quoted,
"We must become lovers of Truth no matter how much it hurts.
It is the truth that will set us free only if we will learn how to
recognize and receive the WHOLE truth and not just those things
that we are comfortable with." - anonymous

"Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." John 8:32

A blessed and happy morning to all!


Legend:
between the ♥'s - alien languange translated to human alphabet (i really made an effort there looking for a translator.hahah)
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background music: Everytime I Close my Eyes
---taerz! kalaw-ai pamatian..hahah wla garelate. *allergic*

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Going Home Soon

early discussion about the quake in Japan while having breakfast.
papa: te pila ang npatay?
bro: 200-300
papa: kajutay mlg gle
joi: ke di pa mkita tungod sa baha
papa: tani 1 million pra magbuhin populasyon sa kalibutan
joi: corek.. ang us (damo mkasasala) pagd tani kag china
mama: sa manila pa gid
papa: baw kng sa manila kag didto ko naassign te tani kamo na lang
mama: maggwa ka eh. alangan mapakuribong ka sa hotel! (namersa,haha)
papa: ang survival instinct sg tawo ara na ya,
poh kng di ka na kasurvive sa sitwasyon wala ka gid may mahimo.
kitaay na lang ta sa next lifetime eh..
mama: haha, mkaluwas ka pa ayhan kng magpiyak ang duta kag mtampukan ka?
ako ya gusto ko maging pispis pra kng magtsunami mkalupad ko.
joi:whahah
bro: aswang ka na lang para di ka mapalid
mama: yawan ka to karon pangita sang piyak mo nga lawas eh
joi: masanagan adlaw mpatay kaman jpon..te ukayon mo lang imo half ya eh.
mama: ireport ko eh, kung sin-o makakita sang lawas ---

HAHAHAHAH
(this time, serious talk na)
papa: ang maadvice ko ya sa inyo, spend quality time
with your friends and family.
mama: te malagaw ta ya to pirme
(mama ko adik gid ya! haha)
papa: (cont.) ... gaabot na ta sa punto nga mdula na ang physical aspect
sg kalibutan kag ang spiritual nlg mabilin
joi: agree gid ko da pa. gnaenjoy ko na gani sbng
amo na sbng nahimo ko. *grin*

(before my father had spoken those words, i knew it before.
it started on my birthday i couldn't just explain those feelings.
all i wanted is to spend happy times with my friends and family.
after noticing the biblical events unfolding, it knew this is it.
Im so excited because we're going home real soon.. to our real home♥ )

Monday, March 7, 2011

Try Next Time!

Dear two-horned creature:
I was getting successful a while ago,when after checking out my guest,
everything turned upside down.I'm glad to say you win for forfeiting
my exam grade in front office and at the same time,
I am sorry to declare that you lose.Coz letting someone
like me feel down would never be that easy.
Try again next time..when you can. Maybe you need a better tactics.
Goodluck!
 

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