First Love

*I craze over this song..we always sang this back in SOGOD with Hannah and Rhea while lying in the bed or walking down the street or @BB J's Videoke.haha*


(English Version)
Once in a while
You are in my mind
I think about the days that we had
And i dream that these would all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
How I want here to be with you
Once more

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one in my life
So true, I believe i can never find
Somebody like you
my first love

Once in awhile
Your are in my dreams
I can feel the warmth of your embrace
And I pray that it will all come back to me
If only you knew every moment in time
Nothing goes on in my heart
Just like your memories
And how I want here to be with you
Once more
yah yah yah

You will always be inside my heart
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Please don't say no
Now and forever you are still the one
In my heart
So true, I believe I could never find
Somebody like you
My first love
oh oh

You will always gonna be the one
And you should know
How I wish I could have never let you go
Come into my life again
Oh, don't say no
You will always gonna be the one
So true, I believe I could never find
Now and forever

Confused

hai suzzz... *deep sigh* *and one more sigh*
isn't everything enough? kapoooy...

even how many people waves on me and try to knock at my door, i still end up thinking about the past so blurry..been struggling for years with this emotions...ENOOOOOOOUGGGGHHHH!!!please????

it's a mysterious experience... its diggin down deep in my soul.i dont know, i just couldn't explain this feeling.BRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!

Now i feel so confused on what I'm holding on for so long. As new acquaintances are trying to enter the scene, I dont know if the one that i had believed would still be the one or not. So hard to tell. I see no actions. What if im just trying to build up those lies just to mask the pains? That were not really meant for each other? That I'm just trying to force these things to happen when in fact its not gonna happen?awwww...

anyway, the past few months I met a new friend, but we'd only get close these past few weeks before my return in Negros. His family showed me care..or maybe its just that i care for everyone I met,that's why.Karma it is..Good karma results into good life. The whole family approves and the only problem is me. He's a good guy, responsible, anything you wanted in a guy though he's not that handsome as my past love. Faces doesn't matter to me at all. My eyes would look at the soul directly. But there's still lacking. I wouldn't know yet. Before going home, I made him a scrapbook with our pictures with his family and my friends on. Just a thank you gift. All words used are wholesome and carefully chosen so as not to trigger any emotional flips.I would feel guilty if would enter in this relationship. We've talked about it already. That I couldn't still decide about it since Im waiting for the one God has chosen for me. It's good to know that he agrees with it without any complaints. He buys my medicine, prepares me foods and avoids those things I can't eat. I can feel he really cares for me. And I'm doing the same to his family not because that's what it is supposed to but this is who I am. And Im not just doing it for them but for everyone I meet, Still doing some observations,though. I'm open for the possibilities. WHAT IF? It's him? Only time can tell.

Then I know a friend too, we have so much in common. There's a part in him that I like..but there's still lacking..ai Lord.

Please give me an ALL-in-ONE package, could you?thank you in advance.hehe

all i know for certain is that I'm meeting someone I-don't-know-if-i-know-him-or-not..he's a little closer now.Next year I'll be seeing him - the "One".

Grow and be ready *_*

A Message to my Twin

I thank God f0r lettng us meet again 0n this lifetime. My heart will always remembr you. It doesnt matter if we'll not end up together...but you'll ALWAYS be here in my HEART FOREVER.
.
.
.
For my s0ul rec0gnizes u..
And 0nly u can c0mplete me..

Because y0u are

my 0ther HALF,
my TWIN FLAME.

the 0ne, im waitng
f0r all 0f my life.

You're always
g0nna be the 0NE.

I c0uldn't believe t0 have f0und the REAL THING in u. Thank u s0 much Mr. Archir.N0 w0rds can ever measure 0r explain. N0b0dy c0uld understand this. F0r we b0th know, it's just between God and us.

I'll always treasure you. ^_^
Take care.

L0ve and light,
~j0i