bloggy, been missing you.. T_T dontwori, after all these school stuffs im gonna post more entries. ahiii..ive found a cute song chords. ^^ gonna try this for sure. LOL,, im so lazy right now in going to school.haha is it because Christmas break is fast approaching?haha
*overwhelmed w/ joy* nevermind..just super-duper happy right now.haha of course not that im inspired by someone.. its just that im happy giving what i have without expecting something in return. not for someone i really love but for people who i just knew this day..haha you can't give what you don't have.ayt? so im just sharing the blessings i had received from God on this very day..
Can you still see your dreams in the distant, starry sky? Are they more vivid than they were when you were little?
When one forgets to put the emotions that overflow in her heart to rest, they burn the color of passion.
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.
Dreams are more fragile and fleeting than a glass rose, so then why are we destined to dream?
Sometimes two dreams can turn into love, but there are also times when they can't.
Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.
Even when they're alone, people want to share their feelings, but it can be so hard. Words are powerless to express one's feelings, and sometimes they become a silver knife.
I used to believe without a doubt that I could reach my dreams, no matter how far off they were. But that me from long ago now sleeps inside my heart.
--------------------------------- later q na tpusin.ahehe my pasok pa kac..
A dry breeze is blowing The city is getting cold I wonder how many seasons have passed Without even a sound?
All of the people coming and going Bear heavy burdens, Searching for tomorrow Within the heat haze wavering in the distance.
Feelings like sand Falling through my hands... Back then, the words that pierced my heart Suddenly started to throb with pain, but...
I've searched for pieces of myself, Counting the endless nights all the while. These feelings are becoming so certain I almost lose myself. Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far.
I wonder, why is the sky So vast? Even though I tried to yell, my voice didn't come And the tears poured out.
I wonder where the birds are flying off to, As they freely slice through the wind? One can't return to the same place As it once was in days gone by.
Even if I give up my dream like this, I won't suppress my soaring heartbeat. Someday, I want to reach As high as the clouds. I'll spread wide the wings in my heart and journey once again
I will reach it, without fail.
I've searched for pieces of myself, Counting the endless nights all the while. These feelings are becoming so certain I almost lose myself. Right now, without fail, I will walk forward, however far
================= A song from Gensoumaden Saiyuki. Got the song title from my classmates Menas and Diane who were an anime addict. am not an anime fan, though.. its just the song im attracted to, u know. *grin*
miss ko na ang FM at mga tao dun. computer-related course sana kunin ko kya nga lang ng-iba na decision ko.. what's with u brain?? haha gusto ko sana dumalaw dun kaya lg baka maadik na nman ako sa kkgawa ng layouts.. kaya buti pa mag mgmove-on na ako..ahehe happy nman ako ngaun sa course ko.. no regrets..masaya mgbake ng cakes! nkakapagod lang ang housekeeping subj kac kelangan tlga mglinis.hehe
thanks naman at npadalaw c sis aufelle sa blog ko.at least papano mjo mbabawasn pagkamiss ko sa fmians.hehe
xia nga pla,,about my previous entry.. parang di ko xia like.ahaha cnxa na..resulta lg yun ng boredom.. i've changed already.. see?haha we can't avoid nman mdepress paminsan2 dba? its better to be emotional sometimes para naman mailabas mga hinanaing mo dan to suppress it.kaw lang din masasaktan.ayt?
"smile and the world smiles with you. cry and you cry alone."
that's the reality naman eh. Each time we wake up, we only have two choices to make. and that's only to be happy or be sad. if you wanna be happy all day then you have to make the right choice-be happy. if you wanna be sad then its up to you.. Remember, we are the ones making the choices and our future depends on how we make our decisions.. And because every single moment counts,be it happy or sad,we should seize the day with courage & hope!!! Let's enjoy life and keep our spirits high..hiyeah!! (ang kyut ng emoticons q.ayiiih)
argh...im jz wasting my time doing nothing in front of my monitor.. my stomach is shouting for food again.. anyway,i dont have a class tomorrow.. its not a loss but an opportunity for me..hurray.haha i can go online till morning.. oopz i promiz last night not to stay late again.did i?
*a big deep sigh* when will these scars just fade away? its frustrating me.. im wondering how can i ---
oh btw, im planning to have a vacation on Christmas break.. um,,,at the hospital.haha hayz,,i haven't told my parents regarding this matter.im so concerned about my cruise on summer.where should i get the money for my practicum? hmm,,i think i have to prioritize first my health..id be going 21 soon and ----
when will these pains stop pestering me? can i just go on considering im not sick? awtz,,how?everytime i look at myself in the mirror, im scared looking at my own reflection.ahehe hay,no kidding..
how can i not mind these things?my eyes,my skin, and my ..
what makes me more sick is when people ask me why this and that.. is there someone who could just accept me without knowing what's really on my past?im so tired explaining over and over again... if i could just record those then surely it wouldn't bother me and moreover i wont be wasting a little of my saliva it wont be paining my heart.ayt??? coz everytime im telling what had happened, its breaking me down instead of being thankful id survive. i just can't forget those things easily..esp the struggles and hardship of my love ones for me..
i owe them my life. have to do such things to repay those hardships they did for me.. but maybe for the meantime,i have to work on my self first, even though some people might say im selfish..
again,, im troubled by the same existing person and I can't really tell if he's an imaginary being i just made up on my mind or a real existing one.
The bliss which transpired long months ago had eventually awaken me again - The thing which Im expecting chances with.
Yet the more it's getting closer to me, the more i feel so awkward grasping it on my hands too tight just to avoid being redrifted away by the wind.
Yeah, i admit im a coward. Afraid it would escape from me again but embracing it is the fact that would be hard for me to do.
How would I welcome it when Im not so sure about it? Its hard to pretend its nothing when in fact it could be everything? Everthing I've dreamed of.. wished of! Everthing I've longed for and prayed for!
Who would come to believe that?.. You might be saying its a Lie! Imaginations aren't that real right?
Listening to: Moment of Truth by Fm Static ai excuse me, ano nlg ni ya?hahaha im bored.la na my gsbay skon.ahehe its ok. ikaw nlg gni storyahon ko ahai...if i could just type ALL whats playing on my mind, i would. but maybe it would take me years to type everything what's stirring me up.LOL
wait.ill just get myself something to eat.*eating-a-donut mode*
im back.hmm..Nu nami nga fillings for choco cake mn? BRB
hay huo joi.mau gd na nhimo mu.pulaw na nman.grrr promiz,just a few more minutes.(few? more?LOL im confused) i'll jz wait for my momci n company to arrive.
"♪..♫..and i miss you more whenever i think about you. ..been so long since we've been talking and in a few more days we'll both hook up, forever and ever..♪..♫.♪...."
*photoshopping mode<---miz dz 1* guess i can sleep by now.ahehe gnyt... signing off
im sleepy na..but i have to finish the menu book for our waitering.. hayz..la lng. Some strange thoughts have just crossed my mind. i dont know.. i have realized that everything in this world isn't under my control And its stinging me right here (v) yeah,he's a good guy. a great one maybe. but i don't have to press him to stay just for me. if he wanted to, he would.
is it still me? its depressing that i could be nothing to him when for me, he's ---i dunno he's everything.ahuuu
i dont even wanna think about it. its just crushing me.. I need your strength Lord.T_T
Now Playing: Suntok sa Buwan by Session Road sorry if im always bringing bad news to you... ano man bi ke,huhu la lng..hehe huo ah,,buang na kng buang.so what?haha awtz gd ya..sakit arms ko sa floor polisher. nu ni klase nga course mn?hahaha okay2,look at the brighter side. il take it as an exercise.haha pero sakit gd ya eh.. im sad staring at you!!yes,ikaw..monitor.hehe i wanna see the moon..huhu december 13 pa.. i cant wait...
hmm...whats awaiting me the next time i see the scene of you?? getting excited..what could be my next encounter?hehe
Now playing: Angel by Tres Again, i find it hard to stay in front of the monitor because it only makes me blue.i guess there's no other reason for me to go online but my school works.
there's so much things i've learned for weeks when i lost my contact to him and im so proud to have these progress..yes, i admit it im doing these for him not just for myself. But what could be so fulfilling when the one whom you're preparing yourself at is already gone? how could you be so happy without sharing this to someone special, without letting him know about it?
there's this feeling inside that depresses me. maybe its the thought of losing him. am i too late to let him know what and to whom my heart is truly shouting for? That i'd wanted him so bad..to be mine alone. no shares just, just me..the worst thing i have in mind is that id wanted him to be not just mine now but to be mine forever. is this insanity or what? falling in love so bad without seein' the person, without holding any info about him seems mysterious and wrong. yet i cant help my self staying away from the thought of him. because that's the thing that awakes me from reality.Is it just the thought that i love about him?if its just the thought, why would i bother preparing myself for just a thought, or an imagination i say?
so glad about the progress i've made but at the same time, scared. Scared for the fact that im beginning to lose someone. I've been gone for a week and i think that worried him.It made me worry less for im holdin' on to his words, "im always here for you.." The problem is,if he knows how to keep those words.it don't matter if for them i seemed like nuts believing him.i don't really care.i wanna thank him for everything..because of him,i was able to renew my life.. a lot of things i never realized before.but now, my eyes are widely open about the realities. It was then when he said i don't know how to balance my life,when i began to decide 'bout renewing. my life is beginning to have its directions. im so full of hope now, my depression lessened, starting to mingle with people, i learn how to enjoy my life.. balance my time at school, give time for my self to enjoy. He had awaken me from a deep sleep.and im so grateful to God for sending me someone like him. If given a single wish, i'd like him to stay FOREVER. but i just cant love him unless i am whole. gradually,i have to pick up first the small pieces of me.
