Overjoyed

can't further pinpoint where my current emotions are generated from.
felt so high today.. *sigh* *grin*

some familiar state i was experiencing last year..
same old feelings..exactly!

still examining myself what could be the reasons why.
i wanna know in the first place why i feel so inspired..
im sure its not about that someone im talking past in my blog..
nor that i found someone new..
doesn't have anything to do with my grades..
nor with the 2 surprising scholarships i had received a few months ago..
or for passing the tesda assessment..

hmmm..im in the process of thinking.


i could still describe what i am doing when i was in that euphoric state..
was so happy that time that love overflowed and radiated out my whole being.

i could still remember, my notes are doodled always with heart shapes. (till now, i carried it with me)
even my buko pie during my baking class have hearts also..haha (sometimes my buddy diane and i are having minor argumentations because of our differing designs.hers was a broken heart and mine was the opposite,haha)
everything im doing was engraved or embellished with hearts ..LOL
can't imagine myself for skipping 2 classes just to send heart cookies from negros to cebu..haha (never done that before)
or sending some recorded sound clips through web..XD
or giving away slices of cake or a plate of dish to some people i don't know much..
i remembered the tricycle driver of my same age(i think), who asked for my number in a few weeks time after i handed him a piece of cake..ahaha (maybe he'd thought i liked him. totoinks!)

the old love feeling is re-existing..
yesterday, someone complimented on me and asked me if im in love?XP
"yes, im in love, as always. " what did i said? in love? ahaha
words just slipped out my mouth, ya know..^^

i dunno. nothing is bothering me right now.not even heartaches and confusion
just wanna enjoy everything i am in right now..ahaha
maybe, this heart-nosed creature could demo it for me


Good night everyone..


p.s. a very significant day for me. 16. Love you, LORD!^^
(would be editting/adding some lines in my next visit)

My Babies

it was a boring afternoon and i just came across this website.

MorphThing

cant stop myself from laughing, looking for some cute match to come up with a cute baby. really had fun! *LOL* you gotta try this..

here are my babies from their different lemme say "fathers"?XD


for my privacy can i just keep the names invisible?haha
lets play a guessing game. u ready??

now you can guess their father's name..haha

baby #1


baby #2

baby #3


baby #4


baby #5


who's the cutest among them all?

P.S. im 100% single.LOL,, im just having fun.okay?so dont spoil my day..haha

Drunk

i wanna blog but really have nothing to say.
did i just mean nothing?
umm, actually got more thoughts to blog yet dunno where to start.
and its just that im having a hard time putting it into words..^^

*freakin' spaced-out*

about my class this morning, i just remembered, our professor let us taste 6 kinds of wine: red wine, white wine, rose wine, champagne, black and white martini with varying alcohol content. we were required to taste all of them. in other words, each one must have a shotglass of each beverages.




since im not really engaging into such drinks, i had only forced myself to make 2-3 sips of each awful drinks (yeah,,tastes awful especially the white martini. taste like a fermented cockroach, eww) i offered my left-overs to my classmate since im allergic to alcohols.

some had gone beyond 10 shots already.guess what? my they were freakin' drunk during class. Red faces, sleepy eyes and uncontrolled noises covered the entire room.

*yawn*

im sleepy now.can't open my eyes wide..so i think
and maybe you think also i have to go for a rest.

good night!!
*off to bed*

Truth hurts

i really wanna know why there are some people who would love us to go through a more difficult path before exposing us to the most awaited and obvious truths..

why do they always love to play with people's feeling??
can't they play with their own emotions??
or maybe they don't just have one?
that's why they prefer playing with someone??



Okay, im trying to sound serious now about my blog's content so readers wont consider them as rubbish. Well im not really in favor with that kind of attitude.

Humans are not things. They are not just objects you could easily throw away when you see its damaged already or feel like its not important to you at all. Human beings are God's creature and should be treated with great respect.

Oh wait! i don't know really why in the middle of blogging, i talked about the difference between humans and objects when in fact there's only one important thought i'd like to impart to the readers..

it goes something like this oh...

Please...
please...

Don't ever try hiding things from somebody although you know it would hurt them. Don't let them wait for longer when you can immediately reveal them the truth"

Do you know what adds up the pain?
They are most likely the people who would say to themselves, "I'm afraid it would hurt so I'd better keep it until I have the courage to tell."

Pains won't last that long after some surprising revelations but it would hurt more when you try to conceal it much longer. Its not the truth that hurts. Its the gap, the hours of waiting which bring confusion sometimes depression.

So puh-lease, (isn't it obvious that im now begging?well...) if you are one of those people, be brave enough to say the truth. Don't try to conceal it in your hands..
For we all know, the one and only truth can set people free.

Weekly expenses stresses me

Have you ever grown tired of asking for money every now and then?
but then you don't have any choice whom to turn to but your parents?
and when you ask, you hear statements like "where would you spend it?" "that's too much" "we don't any left for our lunch" and some other stuff like that..*deep sigh*


Being a student is really a pressure for me especially if you're enrolled in a course with a lot of expenses..ingredients for dishes especially.it costs a lot of money. grrr...

every week, i have this where-should-i-get-the-money headache since i've got two subjects that requires purchasing of ingredients. too bad 'coz my savings are also used for my school expenses. But when bankruptcy settles on me, i would really ask money from my mom eventhough its kinda embarrassing. because im not really the type who always ask for help if i still can manage the situation. *dont have choice*

few hours ago, i asked again *lost 5 confidence points in the process*

what You have revealed a few days ago was a gratitude. and with that i was able to say, thank you for i can now say that he's not. I've just been saved. I know i am..^^

Reserved

got some news today..
but i don't have time to type yet.arrgh
(excited pa nman)



here i am, cramming now for my tour project and managing to study for my exams tomorrow .

hey, this is just a post to remember that i have something to tell on this very day..haha
well you know, every moment for me is significant.

i'm gonna make it as a basis for you know..haha

*sigh*

got nothing to do right now.
just having my guitar session,(forgot when was the last time i played)
when all of a sudden got my eyes welled up with tears after going OL.. T_T
and so wat kung globe ka.wth!
(naghapdi nlg mata ko kay huhu)
must visit my doctor for an eye check-up on Monday.
hope I wouldn't receive any bad remarks from him

Lord, PLEASE...don't try to tease me again..
PUh-LEeez :(
it's stressing me.

Moonstrucked

Actually, i don't have any intention of going online today coz of my busy schedule and my pre-prelim exams. but after being moonstrucked again (take note: "AGAIN") due to the beauty and fullness of the moon, i was opted for some minor update since its almost been a month i had my last post .


The MOON...
the MOON...
the MOON...

here i go again, hahaha
i don't know what's really with the moon that attracted me..
felt like gravity is pulling me just for a stare..
Does Mr. Right also stares at the moon?just like i always do?ahaha
Do you think its the only communication given by God
since im not yet ready to meet him??ahaha (you are dreaming)

Don't ya worry Mr.Right..
I'll meet ya halfway when everything's ready..haha

7:35 pm
Amswalk now signing-off!

I want a man

- an excerpt from "What to do until love finds you" by Michelle Hammond


I want a man
not just any man
I want God’s man
hand-picked
kingdom appointed
for such a woman as this . . .

I’m looking for a love
not just any love
I want the God kind of love
filling a heart that beats
to the kingdom’s rhythm
unadulterated
Holy Ghost saturated
the kinda love that
can’t be rated . . .
poured out
runnin’ ovah
like water in a glass
already full of good things
smooth as silk
yet tough as rope
wrapping around my soul
keepin’ it all together
forever
with room enough for me
to be

a woman
not just any woman
God’s woman
whole and free
to love you
the way I want you to love me
with a love
not just any love
but the God kind of love
rich as a sinful dessert
pure as tried gold
the kind of love that can hold
onto your hand
and God’s at the very same time
delivered from all other ties that bind
and yes
I’m free enough to wait . . .
for a man
not just any man
but the man
who understands
and knows what love means
and lives what God says . . .
and wants what I want

a real love

a strong love

a tall love

agape love.


God’s love.

Till its time

My first newly released song..Hahaha
Thank God was inspired that time and I was able to finish the full track..^^ (though its not quite good)



I have made this for one special person in my life whom i thought would have the courage to hold on till the time comes. but sadly, i later knew he's taken already ^^


maybe this one,doesn't fit to him anymore..
instead i dedicate this to my Mr.Right.^^

Baso: "Stand up when you fall"

ahahaha!! kkamerienda ko lang at natawa talaga ako ngayon..watda!

simple lang naman kinain ko. bbq na saging, softdrink at chaka cheese bun. ano ba meron sa tatlo nun ba't npatawa ako?

kasi ganito yun eh, yung di naubos na coke ni mama isinalin ko dun sa baso ng papa ko. and den pinatong ko sa pinggan ang baso, na dadalhin ko na sana sa loob, kaya lang parang gnun nga, dahilan sa pagkaclumsy ko, nahulog at natumba sa mesa. Wala lang, parang ewan ako. haha

Yung pinagtatawanan ko na part ay ang dramatic na pagkatumba ng baso tapos yung dramatic din na pagbangon nito.haha

tinanong ko kapatid ko kung nakita niya yun, eto ang insulto niyang reply. "uu, eh ano naman ang nakakatawa?" napatawa ako ng tuluyan hanggang sa nakarating ako sa kitchen. Yun napatawa ulit ako.

"Ang babaw naman ng kaligayahan mo, " napasabi ng kapatid ko.
Pinagtawanan ko lang siya, "eh syempre. parang miracle eh. natumba, tpos napabangon ng ganun na lang?"

Hay wala naman. Nakakatuwang pangyayari kaya pinost ko lang kahit wala naman talagang kwenta. at hanggang naman sa pagtype natatawa pa rin ako sa lokong baso na yun. haha Napatawa niya talaga ako.^^

Current Realizations:

Yes, senseless. But then, to perceive things beyond what our normal eyes can see, we discover that there are reasons and explanations underlying it of why such events are happening. Truly, its so hard to define nor answer those uncertainties at the back of our minds, yet we know for sure that God would never let us walk alone unto the unknown shadows of life. As we grow more patient and faithful to all these happenings around us, slowly by slowly, God is working out His plan for us, in a subtle way, without our knowledge. There would be lonely days at times but believe me, it never lasts. If you were just being observant of what was happening around you, you may realize that God still cares, would make us smile in different ways, despite His business in preparing a good life for us. And that cup is a mini-miracle from Him, for it made me laugh in a way i could never understand why, for me, that cup is truly funny.

Day after day, God is showing His love for us, giving out His mini-miracles in simple forms, which some of us thought was just the normal way things are, yet we never know its a simple gift to appreciate or to be grateful for and most especially, to let us know He's there for us all the time.