Fighting Blues Away

11/9/08

Now Playing:
You are Not Alone by Michael Jackson
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Again im feeling so down right now..
I know i shouldn't be like this because he don't like me to be on this state..
im sorry but i can't help myself.
I just don't know why..
I feel like crying and i don't know some way to cheer me up but blogging.
Here, i can write up anything what's runnin' on my mind...in silence.
...without anybody dictating me what to do, think or say.

i always find ways to express myself when im lonely or gay.
as of now, im back in photoshopping..
back in playing a guitar..reading books, watching tv shows and movies.
what's with me?

My old days..
My life which once i get my self accustomed with is
A dull life..living contentedly with what i just have,
not happy though but just making out of what i have
and getting myself used to it.

Yet now, the once darkened world had been lit up.
i can never believe im so full of life right now.
I've never been this alive..

[...typing on progress]