THE REAL THING

Dear Lord,

Thank you for makin' me feel certain that this heart knows what's right.
That this heart could only LOVE but not HATE,
Could only be TRUE but doesn't FAKE.

I couldn't take this as an illusion anymore because I know for sure that this thing is REAL. And only You can undestand that deeply. After almost 3 years of inner debate, I've come to believe that he's my twin. I hope that he would recognize me too.

I felt guilty after reading these pieces of information about the TWIN SOUL RUNNERS.. because I, too, am a runner. I've done all my might to cut all ties yet nothing had happened and it only resulted into depression, ripped soul and unproductive life. And the only effective way I had ever think of is to SURRENDER/ACCEPT that he's the other part of my soul. I've seen a great progress on my development and I feel I am in alignment with my inner self and God. I really do things well.

Im being patient Lord. Whatever happens, I know its for the best of us.

Im gonna leave everything in Your hands Lord.
Just do it Your way.♥

Twin Soul Runner

hai Lord...sauce gd.life gd..this article is making me cry..
I wish to disappear. This is really happening to me.
Even how much I want to forget, do anything to cut ties - NOTHING HAPPENS.
I feel guilty of running away..I've swallowed my pride already and I'm tired of thinking what to do next. What to do??

Acceptance is the only way to end all this insanity.huweh..
Im gonna leave everything in your hands Lord. Just do it Your way.♥

Twin Soul

I can almost relate to this article..very close.haiiiz..
almost the same experience i would say.

"For years I went through life confused about what I believed in.

My parents were religious [my father is a spiritual person] and although I believed in God and tried to follow their faith, there was always something missing. Things didn’t quite add up and I was left confused and with many questions. I turned away from religion and carried on for a few years drifting aimlessly along.

But then my twin soul came back into my life [except this: we had known each other in childhood] but there were no “sparks” back then, and my whole world was turned upside down. I went three years of feeling so much love and also so much fear and pain when it came to my twin soul and myself.

I didn’t know what was going on except for I felt petrified when I loved twin so much but didn’t actually like him as a person (at that time). My spirituality was becoming more apparent to me; I began to see deep down that some of the most real things in life were those that I couldn’t see with the naked eye. But I was too scared to believe in what I felt and knew to be true in my heart, so I carried on for years in great pain, convincing myself I was crazy and it was all in my head. [exactly..felt so insane, imbalanced]

But I knew in my heart that what we felt for each other amongst all the chaos, pain and fighting was real. In fact it was the most real thing about my life. [agreee!!!] But I didn’t have a logical explanation for it, so I blamed it on “obsession” and “weakness”. For however much we tried to push each other away out of fear, we always came back together by this feeling of massive magnetism. It was like I physically couldn’t help but be pulled to him, even if my ego wanted to cut all ties. [this is exactly what i wanted but can't do anything but to accept it] But, what I didn’t realise then is that the ties can never be cut. It was all a lesson in accepting oneself and others unconditionally.

Because he was the counterpart of my soul, I had to learn how to accept that mirror image I saw in him and come to love myself through those feelings of intense vulnerability. He also had to do the same. [i am hoping he would do the same] It’s an ongoing process, but once the difficulties of coming to accept oneself have been overcome, the Joining back together with the other half of your soul is amazing beyond what any human words could ever describe." Continuation

Vibe Bugs?

Im doing great! I feel totally whole and loved! yet despite these heavenly feelings, i have these unknown vibes bugging me for a night or two already. ...sssskkkkkkk! what's this??

THE WEIRD GUY IN MY DREAMS

I forgot what to say nyahaha.
My mind goes blank and I love it more than thinking of so many stuff on the same topic over and over again.
Do you have a psychic or a mystic friend , Lord? HAHAH Can i talk to her about some matters? I just want to know something about these soulmates and twinflames thing.HAHAHA

I've made a research on how to break the bond from the person I knew but it said when you'll have a soulmate encounter it would be difficult to break the bond. HU-WHY?When I don't think of this person it usually sprung on my mind from nowhere or in my dreams unexpectedly. This is kinda crazy. I'm making everything work so as to keep my balance but this man would really complicate things.

Honestly, July 2010 was my last contact with him. I greeted him on his birthday and that's all. I had forgotten him totally or rather consciously after that. So that time, I was busy doing a research about some more interesting stuff - esoteric knowledge. I dug so many ideas about the universe and they makes sense and my whole perspective changed about the universe and what's happening around. Very mysterious yet addicting. I feel like I'm totally connected with God and his creation at the same time.

I've lost my memory of him until on the last week of November. He reappeared in my dreams. So you see? Even if I don't have any contacts with him he's still intruding me in my dreams. What I don't fully understand is that what I call the "connection". I feel like there's something wrong going on with him but I don't know what was it. I've never put a thought on him but as the days had gone mad, I'd always see him in my dreams eventhough I wasn't thinking of him. I SWEAR. I can prove it on my blog posts. I don't like telling him to anyone so when I feel its very disturbing on my part, I just spill it over my blog. Not until I had this very weird dream. You may read it here. GUY ON A GRAY SHIRT

Weird because after watching the movie, I cried myself to sleep asking God to stop this connection and to take away those unwanted emotions I have for him. I asked what his role for me and then got that weird dream as a reply.

I still can't decipher the message. The weirdest of all, when I woke up in the morning, checking of fb is the usual thing, the same shirt color with I-dunno thing on his neck sent me a friend request on FB. Pretty weird, isn't it? I hated when I remember what my reaction was. I feel my whole body become numb and my vision blurred. I'm not exaggerating but I do really feel like fainting when the guy wearing that gray shirt on my dream showed up on FB. Coincident?I hope so. And another weird dream: A LITTLE LONGER

For now I don't wanna give connotations about this mysterious event in my life. I don't really think we could be friends because I think it's impossible to do so. The feeling is so intense that it could dominate my thoughts and maintaining a space between us would really help me to keep my balance.

We became friends again this year. I've told him partly what I needed to tell and then I decided to make no contacts with him. I am hopeful that after pouring out those suppressed thoughts and emotions for years, I could break the bond with him. I am certain to myself that I've learned what I needed to learn from him Lord. So I think, its time to let go so I'd be finally feel FREE. Free to accept the real thing for me. I'm excited to encounter the "ONE". Im praying that he's spiritually ready. Please reserve him for me Lord. And help me to recognize him at the perfect time.

i could feel he's just a mile away because I can smell the sweet aroma when the wind enters my nostrils. ♥ MEETING THE ONE ♥

Im so thankful on my encounter with the "guy in gray shirt" It really sped up my spiritual growth. I believe he was sent by God in preparation for meeting the "ONE". Congratz to me in advance!

FOCUS on the HERE and NOW.

Suddenly It's Magic!

I am sooo loving this song..Im gonna play this on my wedding day too..♥♥♥^_^

I always thought I would be strong
If I made it through the pain
Well, I've been in and out of love
And it all hurts just the same, oh yeah
Love can really change your life
There's somethin' magic in my world tonight ...

Chorus:
I feel, so free, it's like a fantasy
Havin' you next to me
Suddenly it's magic
One look, one touch
Words just won't say enough
When you fall in love
Suddenly it's magic ...
I'm not afraid of letting go
I've got to find what's right for me
I'm not afraid to stand alone

If that's the way it has to be
After all that I've been through
There's magic when I'm here with you ...
(Repeat Chorus)

Bridge:
We can dream our dreams forever
When I'm here with you, baby
Heaven's a heartbeat away
Now that we're together
Love can last forever
There's magic in my life
With you, you, oh yeah ...
Adlib:
One look, one touch
Words just don't say enough
When you fall in love
Suddenly it's magic ...
Suddeny it's magic ...

(Repeat Chorus)

Meeting the One

If you hold that frequency of unconditional love
If you have reached that place in yourself
and its your fervent wish to meet that person
and to experience the divine relationship of service,
know then that you will meet this person.



Know fully in your heart that the person you seek
is there for you around the corner in time.
Let go of any desperation or need to be with this person.
Be truly comfortable and in balance as a single entity.
Find happiness in this single path and
let go of that need to be with your twinflame.
and then that person will come into your life.

For one of the greatest tools that your disposal for
creating your own reality is the tool of knowing
WHAT YOU WANT and

knowing YOU HAVE WHAT YOU WANT.
And being happy without it and letting go of it.

For letting go is the key to manifestation.

We are the white-winged consciousness of mind. ^_^

-Excerpted

I Don't See You In Him

Dear Lord,

Although my soul is certain that my heart was made for him, i couldn't love a man who doesn't have Your Heart. unless maybe a transformation is made on him. And "Only You" can do that.

I dont see You in him.
There's no point of holding on.
Coz I believe I deserve someone better.

I feel sad for him that he couldn't even recognize me- the soul behind the person.
And I know its him Lord whom I've been looking & waiting for so long. But I think I need to find someone on this lifetime to get past of him. And when that time comes, when everything is right, I know all will fall into place. For the mean time, I'm giving that man everything he needs to learn. And please take care of him.

I don't feel bad. I swear.
But we couldn't be friends somehow.
Or else I couldn't give him the chance to grow and realize
what You need him to learn to be a better person. ^_^
Even if it means handing him in the care of another person.
I'd be happy for him. Just do your work on him Lord.
I know in my heart he is a good man.

Thank you Lord...I feel so loved and blessed.
Coz only You can satisfy me.
I would never exchange you Lord to anybody.
If he wants to be the second then maybe I could let him in.. ^_^

MISS YOU

Its a mix of good and bad feeling when you miss someone..

GOOD FEELING - you're inspired to do more things.

BAD FEELING - when you can't do something about it or cannot even say,

hello! i miss you..

ahahah...haiz...

Lord, could you tell him that?hahaha Would You?

Please?

Thank you...

Euphoria

Smiling for reasons I don't know.kapoy ngisi every now and then. Wish it would always be like this.
People could've mistaken me as psychotic.

But Im sure that my mind still thinks straight

I could still discern what's right from wrong, you know.

I'd love talking to trees especially the guava tree when I sit on the balcony.

My mom would ask me, who are you talking at?

That guava. Di pwede aw?^_^

The air I breathe smells good

I couldn't describe exactly the scent

but my nostrils knows that it has no scent.haha

But if I ask my soul to describe,

it really smells like a perfume.

And wherever I go, it smells alike.

So rich and full of love

And I feel like the whole universe harmonizes with me.

Happiness.

Contentment.

What a euphoric feeling.

When You Know

A soundtrack from my all-time favorite movie, Serendipity♥

I super duper love this movie and can watch it over and over again without being bored..

(changing my bg music)

WHEN YOU KNOW - Shawn Colvin

When you know that you know who you love, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

When you feel in your skin in your bones and the hollow
Of your heart, there's no way you can wait till tomorrow.
When there isn't any doubt about it once you come this close
Cos you know and you know that you know.

You can feel love's around you like the sky 'round blue
This is how love has found you, now you know what to do.

When you know that you know who you need, you can't deny it.
Or go back, or give up, or pretend that you don't buy it.
When it's clear this time you've found the one, you'll never let him go
Cos you know and you know that you know.

And it's time you come in from the cold.
Haaa...
And you know that you know.

It Feels Good

I am a WHOLE new person with a brand new heart and mind..
But even though many things have changed over the span of time,
my heart is still.
It chooses no one else but you.
And it will always be you, no matter what.
Not because my mind wanted it.
You always tell me Lord that,
“IF IT FEELS GOOD, DO IT. If it feels bad, something must be wrong.”
As I listen to my heart and mind bossing each other,
It made me hear them what's really in my heart.
That I am truly happy every time I think of you,
do things for you, love you
…in silence.
…even in absence.
And it feels good.