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argh...im jz wasting my time doing nothing in front of my monitor..
my stomach is shouting for food again..
anyway,i dont have a class tomorrow..
its not a loss but an opportunity for me..hurray.haha
i can go online till morning..
oopz i promiz last night not to stay late again.did i?
*a big deep sigh*
when will these scars just fade away? its frustrating me..
im wondering how can i ---
oh btw, im planning to have a vacation on Christmas break..
um,,,at the hospital.haha
hayz,,i haven't told my parents regarding this matter.im so concerned about my cruise on summer.where should i get the money for my practicum?
hmm,,i think i have to prioritize first my health..id be going 21 soon and
----when will these pains stop pestering me?
can i just go on considering im not sick?
awtz,,how?everytime i look at myself in the mirror,
im scared looking at my own reflection.ahehe
hay,no kidding..
how can i not mind these things?my eyes,my skin, and my
..what makes me more sick is when people ask me why this and that..
is there someone who could just accept me without knowing what's really on my past?im so tired explaining over and over again...
if i could just record those then surely it wouldn't bother me and moreover i wont be wasting a little of my saliva it wont be paining my heart.ayt??? coz everytime im telling what had happened, its breaking me down instead of being thankful id survive. i just can't forget those things easily..esp the struggles and hardship of my love ones for me..
i owe them my life. have to do such things to repay those hardships they did for me..
but maybe for the meantime,i have to work on
my self first, even though some people might say im selfish..
(to be continued..)
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